Jiki

Jiki (ジキ Jiki) is the main protagonist of Chance to Despair. He is a previously unregistered special grade cursed spirit who played an active part in the childhood of Nobara Kugisaki.

Background
Jiki was born from human fear stemming from lack of control, insecurity and resulting self-loathing. He is a "self curse," as he has dubbed himself.

He was formerly three curses: Ikai, born from fear and hatred of the unknown, Hatenji, born from fear of judgement, and Seisatsu, born from bitterness before and following suicide. They all became one after being driven almost to the point of death, merging to form Jiki. All three of their consciousnesses do not seem to be active any longer, but he has all their memories. He named himself Jiki, meaning "despair" or "self-abandonment."

Appearance
As described by jujutsu sorcerers, Jiki is a human-looking cursed spirit with half and half pink-green hair. His left eye is pink and his right eye is silver.

Personality
Jiki is a curse created from human fear of the unknown and their self-sabotaging, leading to further self-loathing. As such, he is the antithesis of this: Jiki is the embodiment of apathy and lack of care for human life unless that human life can prove itself as pure, whether that be pure evil or pure good. He despises signs of uncertainty or hesitation, being very self-assured and confident himself as he is the manifestation of what those brought to suicide through despair and misery wished they could be, and the kind of person they hated most.

He has gone on record to establish his hatred for the entire human race, hating everything because that hatred born from fear was what gave birth to him. As he was also born from the fear of the unknown and what one cannot control, he considers himself an element the universe did not account for and therefore he has no expectations he should abide by, always doing as he pleases, even if it means risking his own life. He is very straightforward and blunt in speech, but lies frequently just to keep himself an element no one is sure of. Jiki enjoys making himself unpredictable and a wild card.

For those who are pure, however, those who are self-assured like him and certain of who they are, Jiki's behavior changes. He leaves them alone, because there is no "unknown" for him to fear nor care for. They know who they are, what they are, and what it is they want, so there is no reason for him to spend much thought on them. However, as Yuji Itadori deduced, his true motivation is not to ruin the lives of those who have decided what path they wish to follow. Upon being asked by Satoru Gojo, Nobara explained that Jiki actually hates himself more than anything else. He hates what he was born from and considers his own existence shameful and disgusting. He shames, insults and mocks others, remaining the unpredictable and annoying part of every plan to give everyone a greater drive to find what it is they want from life.

Nobara Kugisaki
Jiki and Nobara are very close. Because Nobara was the only person in town who could see curses, she quickly found out what he was but found out he was different just as quick. He frequently insulted the adults and what they did to Saori and her family, but was always so kind to children and younger teenagers. She sees him as an older brother and they frequently tease or mock one another. Because Nobara is very self-confident and honest, Jiki was attracted to her and decided to protect the girl. Jiki followed Nobara to Tokyo and refused to leave her behind, even agreeing to be exorcised if it meant Nobara would be declared as innocent for letting a special grade cursed spirit follow her onto school grounds.

When she was very young, he introduced himself as Jiki, and she mistakenly thought his name meant "chance" or "opportunity." Nobara didn't like the intentional meaning when he explained it to her and took to calling him "Yukiori" instead, an alternate way to read the kanji that would spell his name as "opportunity."

Trivia

 * His name, Jiki, can be written in one of two ways:
 * 自棄, meaning "despair" in the context of self-abandonment or loss of interest in life
 * 時機, meaning "chance" or "opportunity"